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Saturday, September 27, 2003

-x- wen [[aishiteru]] xiu -x- dear diary,

Today i am totally insane. I duno whether it is becos of wad. Perhaps i am havin PMS? I dunno. I am so worse today. My frens were somehow surprised by my actions.

Today we went TBP to purchase some 10 yrs series. There were ivan, Alice, jave and me. I dunno y i suddenly becum speechless. Everything seem so meaningless at tt tym.. i feel left out.. and.. etc. But in fact i am not. I think i am affected by e surroundings and feelings. I somehow gone "disappeared" in TBP. I wandered around TBP and i told myself i wanted to b alone. My frens keep callin me. but i hanged up their fone several times. After a while, i went back to find them. And it happened tt alice went to find me.

Next we went to Jave house. And we intended to study. ivan taught me chemistry and i knew quite alot. I found out that science is actuali quite easy ;) later in e day.. i think my mood swing came back to me.. i dun even haf e mood to study and i bcum so lazy. My tears jus rolled down when several things flashes in my mind. All e sad and unwanted happenings. Hai.. i think i suffered from a little of mental breakdown. I dunno.. i hope things would turn out right in e following days.

Alice said i should go see a shrink. i feel like see-ing one too.. to find out wads reali happening in me.. I shouldnt have think too much. Worst... i suspect i haf split personality.. I can be sooo happy and crackin jokes all e way .. in e other hand.. i can b so depressed that i break into tears.. wads wrong wif me?


[p/s] Jiayou zl for ur tournament .. although i dunno wads tt u r tkin part.. but jus gambatte..

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Friday, September 26, 2003

-x- wen [[aishiteru]] xiu -x- dear diary,

I onli slept for 2 hours ytd nite. I studied about 6 or 7 chapters of physics and den i doze off. Hai. I still haf abt 2 more weeks time. I mus use them wisely man. I am nt tired in klas today, and somemore i am energetic! Haha i think i am mad man. lolx..

Today he came to tok to me and i am tryin very hard to solve the a maths qn i am doin. So when he talked to me, i jes looked at e book thinkin very hard, and jus answered him in tt way. haha. I dunno y i couldnt look at him str at e face. But i guess i jus wanna avoid eye contact bah.. haha.. dunno.. And he ask alice why am i so shy . Dots. I dunno sia.. First tym i hear someone say i am shy.. i reali bWgz..

I immediately "toh" when i reach home. I am reali so so so tired. and when i woke up, i felt so weak.. tired. E feeling sux btw.. aft some while i feel better. I think i m reali stressed. How i wish e final yr exams wld b over!! ah.. i am so hungry.. go to go eat le.. *pOofx*


[p/s] I think my hp bill will b very ex this mth! i keep smsing.. and e thing is tt i do not haf free sms. lolx


.:-+[Kamisama.Mou.Sukoshi.Dake]+-:.


iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Thursday, September 25, 2003

-x- wen [[aishiteru]] xiu -x- dear diary,

It was raining so heavily this morning when i go to sch. And one stupid and irritating incident happened. zZz. And that reali pisses me off. When i am takin e lift up to e main road so that i could catch a cab, theres this idiot lady who is in her 50s i think. I am not tryin to b rude but she reali is unreasonable. I pressed e close button on e lift and when it is about to close, i din saw that lady actuali asked me to wait for her. When e door is almost closed, i den saw her outside raising his hand towards my direction implying to me to wait for her. But e fact is that i couldnt stop e door frm closing already. I tot she would understand. When i reach e main road, that lamer walk towards me and say " ask u to wait and u dun wait! Siao ch** B**" in hokkien omg! That reali made me so angry. I wanted to scold back! but.. i din. I dun wan to stir up trouble. I nv saw such an uncivillised person anyway. I think she sucks! lamer! sucker! I am very angry about it! ugh~ i shall put it behind me. Wad a terrible morning + it is raining so heavily. Hai. And when i am in e cab, i tot of e consequences. If i did scold her back, wad if she hits me? and i am not happy abt it and i push her backwards. If i do so, she would most prob fell to e main road where cars were passin by so quickly. *gulp* that would b worse. ah anyway forget it!

I was shocked that my bro actuali asked me whether i need to use e 'comp anot.. omg. but i din cos i am far too tired. anyway i decided that i started studyin from 12am and till morning and i go sch str after that. haha.. i gtg study my physics le. Haha end of yr is jus.. around e corner. hee =D *pOofx*


.:-+[Kamisama.Mou.Sukoshi.Dake]+-:.

iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

-x- wen [[aishiteru]] xiu -x- dear diary,

Today i had chinese and Ss test. Yesterdae nite i onli studied for e chinese test and din even read abt e SS. As SS is e source base qn i think i do nt need to study so much of it.. E chinese test went alrite and i hope i can get high marks. Hmm i always hope to score for my chinese as it is sort of e easiest =D

All e impt CAs finali over. I can now concentrate on my final yr exams. Haha.. although now is still not e time to relax but we mus let off some stress before new ones come. Haha. We went to haf MACs at chinatown point. And we actuali stayed there for hours and keep chatting. Itz about from 2- 5? haha around there bah.. we actuali tok about so many things. E 7 of us .. no no.. 6.. cos exclude brenda. Hee so many things. Frm e day we r together till now. Sec 1 2 and 3 days. So memorable. Childish stuffs serious.. and oso conflicts. haha.. And of cos e main part is e joke. We reali said so many jokes that my stomach cramp! and one part is "lei bu" ke erm.. i am nt gonna say abt e details of e "joke" haha!! cool~

We went to majestic to buy things. Bernice wanted to buy ten yrs series. we were tokin as normal while on e way there. Den suddenly theres this lady who turned behind and tell us in a very low voice " gers shouldnt tok that loud. Gers mus behave themselves in public" and sort of things like tt. Haha. Bernice pull me all e way to e front haha to avoid e "naggings". Haha. We always tok like this. c'mon.


.:-+[Kamisama.Mou.Sukoshi.Dake]+-:.

iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Tuesday, September 23, 2003

-x- wen [[aishiteru]] xiu -x- dear diary,

Today i got physics and A maths test.. I am ready for a maths becos i haf studied for it.. As for physics.. i jus bascially noe e concepts can le.. anyway I am so stressed to even think about anything. During tuesday i have got 2 tests.. physics and a maths den e following day i got chinese plus Social studies test. Everything is so rush! I studied during e nite and doze off .. requested my dad to wake me up at 3+am.. and cont my revision. I m so tired... so tired... After siting for e continous test.. I m not sure i will pass my physics anot but i hope i can as i did all e qns but i am quite satisfied wif my maths result. I think i will get 17/20 for it. If i am not wrong..

I was kinda relieved and happy tat my frenship wif alice went okay already. Hee.. We sort of clarify our misunderstandings betw us.. and we r bac to normal again. And perhaps i shld say our frenship got deeper. =D happy~ Anyway she suggested that we go tatoo some day. Hmm i asked her "real de ah? or fake de?" lol.. den she say is genuine de. haha i dunno.. but i am very sure tat my parents wun allow. And even if i did, i musnt let them noe. orelse i will b "slaughter" alive. haha.. Who noes..

Today is chong Jun's bdae! happy bdae to him.. well i din get him e pressie but i congrat him.. i think he dun mind too. Haha.. during recess. he was crowded wif our grp of gers. Crackin joke and tok. And we toked abt meeting him at hotel 81 tonite and gave him a "memorable" bdae. haha!!

Hmm went to buy peel fresh orange. Haha they finally have e stock for pure orange juice. Yummy~ original is still bes n peel fresh rules! =D


.:-+[Kamisama.Mou.Sukoshi.Dake]+-:.

iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Monday, September 22, 2003

-x- wen [[aishiteru]] xiu -x- dear diary,

Luckily i was not late today. I think i onli haf e most 3 hrs slp cos i actuali toked wif kee siang on e fone until 3++am? omg. Haha. I din xpect that we will b tokin so much. Time reali files. And of cos i am reali tired.. Hai~ sick of this kind of life.

I forgot that my shoe is washing so i had no sch shoe to wear to sch.. No choice i had to wear another shoe which i dun like. Although is blue but it somehow dun look reali nice to me. But i haf left wif no choice. Run usin that shoe during PE todae.. Is kinda loose and ugh e feeling dun feels right. lol.. And it happen that 2 Blisters grew on my foot. One small one big. I need to walk properly from then cos i am afraid that i might burst it! *ouch* it will b reali painful. I could even feel the "water" when i am walking. EEerRk~!

Todae had my accounts test. Seriously i hate it as in e subject. If i did badly for my end of yr. Its no way i gonna include it in my L1R5.. Hai.. i am tryin very hard to excel in both maths. Hope i do well.

Wansheng called me to accompany him after school to marina sq. Cos he needs to do his proj and he is dead boring. Well i rejected him cos i am busy too. And of cos i am tired. Yea.. Tmr i gonna haf 2 tests. A-maths and physics. Ugh.. hate it.. Is like my head gonna burst. Feeling so stress lately. Everyday in this week, there are tests.. Blah blah blah.. hai~ life is difficult now. It is no wonder i gonna haf some mental breakdown someday. Hai~ If jus my mum din bring me to SG to study.. haha anyway i am tryin to cope wif e situation.

Something which reali release my stress today is haf a real fun laugh this afternoon when we r havin out afternoon break. My grp of frens were together and they started talking about advertisements in e tv. Soon they started singing e song of e advertisement haha! omg. Thats reali funny! They sing e "BMI 25" song.. Haha and e washing equipments song "wan jie ling" haha.. they actuali memorized them. It reali mad me laugh. E most stupid one is e advertisement on "grow grow grow".. u noe e milk? -.- haha!! My hair is dropping tremendously. Omg. I am so scared i becum bald. =X thats so ugly! i wun want that! heard from e tv show, they said that lossing of hair can due to stress. Hai is that prolly e reason? But i haf been cutting down on eating instant noodle. Or should i say i dun reali eat them. Hai~ god knows.

I have a sudden urge to drink orange juice so i went to purchase one when i go home from sch. I couldnt find e peel fresh pure orange flavor and all i could see is onli the mixed flavours.. like apple and peach? orange and peach or.. fruits and vegetables? hmm i dun reali like them cos i think e smell sux. i jus dun like it! and in e end i bought the "sunkist" brand. But after tasting it, i still prefer peel fresh! haha..

My bro had been banning me from using e internet cos of a quarrel which happened not long ago. He is jus too selfish. It is my misfortune to haf a bro like him. How is wish i had an elder sister. I can tell her my probs (ger and ger?) and oso share her clothes and is much more convinient. aww. that sux. Anyway i think my bro made a gd choice too. In a way that i would not haf e internet to tempt me and resulting in neglecting my studies. As end of yr is like about 2 weeks time? I am reali scared. Reali very scared. Hai~ i am jus ... so stressed up!


.:-+[Kamisama.Mou.Sukoshi.Dake]+-:.

iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Saturday, September 20, 2003

-x- wen [[aishiteru]] xiu -x- dear diary,

Hai~! Everyday the same.. I oso dunno what to blog le.. I once remembered someone asked me what is my expectation or perhaps ideal type of guy I like? Hmm I used to give it some thought.. And i told michelle before.. Here it goes..


1. Between e height of 170-179cm.


[ Keke.. although i nt veh tall -.- ]


2. Must be a sporty guy with a build.


[ Guys look nice where deir back mucles look obvious while wearing T-shirt. I dun mean guys with huge mucles but jus fit. ]


3. Tanned


[ Since mus b sporty therefore Havin a nice tan is nice cos it looks outdoor ]


4. Sociable


[ Who would want e other partner to remain quiet all e while on a date ;) ]


5. Humorous


[ Just like someone to make me laugh and smile =) ]


6. emotionally Strong


[ I dun like guys to cry easily cos it makes me think that they r very weak ]


7. Fashionable dressing


[ Clothes and a hairstyle which suits him ]


8. Care n Concern


[ I wanted him to share my happiness, my sorrow and b there for me..]

9. Acceptable look

[ If i say i dun see looks is fake de lor.. at lease wil see la.. but need not b e very handsome type.. okok can le.. cos hor normali handsome de will b more flirt.

And most imptly...


10. Nice heart


[ I dun like guys who are a big baddy and bully e weak. ]


Hmm.. Am i expecting too much? =X


[p/s] It all goes with feelings....


.:-+[Kamisama.Mou.Sukoshi.Dake]+-:.




iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Thursday, September 18, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,

I reali had a terrible nite yesterday. I am not feeling very well.. Everything seems so wrong.. Not goin smoothy as i thought.. Had a quarrel wif shokx las nite.. My feelings now still very mixed up. Fill with sadness. And also kinda angry. Yesterdae somehow had e urge to cry but i din. Cos i promised myself nv to cry again easily. I wan to proof to myself that i am not tt weak. Enuff said. Its reali.. over.


::神様、もう少しだけ::


I totally forgotten how i fell asleep yesterdae nite. Its like my memory got erased. -.- I jus couldnt rememb where i placed my hp and i could nt find it. I did nt wan to b late and so i went to sch without my hp and my discman. I needed my discman to accompany me on e way back home today. I tot it will b completely boring in bus but Chee Yong and his fren actuali took e same bus as me. We kinda talk and keep suan-ing each other. Zzz. And when i got back i kept searching for my hp. I almost turn up e whole house and jus couldnt find it. And eventually is on my brother's bed. But i dun rememb going into his room las nite and i happen to find myself wakin up at e sofa this morning. hmm I am sure that i wasnt slp walking. but how e hell my hp got there? I haf to question my bro later.


::神様、もう少しだけ::


I kinda find Alice strange today. Hmm i reali wanted to noe wad happen or should i say wads bothering her so much. Her mood seems to change and i jus feel it wierd. Read her diary, and somehow noe she is troubled by smthgs but i jus dunno wad. Sometimes i jus hope tt my best fren could talk to me about her things and share it wif me. I would b e one who will lend her my ears. And i would not hesitate to help her solve the probs. I placed my fren at e first place. She told me that it was her schworks that is giving her probs. Okay i believed her and perhaps she is jus too tired or smthg. Or.. becos i'm too "sensitive>"? yea i ask her whether i am being sensitive. She said yes. Okay.. anyway i think that i will b sensitive becos i am concerned abt our frenship. Las time i used to b depressed and always sad and unhappy abt things But now i do not think this way. And i am always cheerful and happy now. Smiling as always. Cos alice let me realised that i am alreadi very fortunate if theres onli one fren who cares and is there for me when i need her. In my heart i haf many gd frens but theres onli 2 close frens i wld always rememb. If they needed me, i would b most pleased to help them. I had problems and i always share them wif my frens. Alice told me "wrong things come at e wrong time".. I guess she is right. i am so busy now. Every day every hr every min, thinking abt my final yr exams. Telling myself " i can do it" i can...


.:-+[Kämï§åmÄ!Mø_§ûkơ§h¦_Đªk³]+-:.



iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


Hee. My template nice? So nice.. That main gal is call Rikku. Cool eh? e design of her clothes chio hor? so hot and unique. Best of all! ke-erm.. paiseh i somehow like her alot.. This is her dressing code in final fantasy x-2. She is like more chio den Yuna. hmph but shokx say yuna chioer. wadeva haha..


::神様、もう少しだけ::


Wah first period english lesson mus present the parts of speech liao. I prepared yesterday nite liao. Kind of a little scared cos i mus explain in details to e whole class... hmm sort of like a teacher to student? ya anyway i am supposed to do that... Hmm after that, Mr Ooi suggested i go and try out as MC. I dunno leh.. i scared i will stumble.. haha..


::神様、もう少しだけ::


During Social Studies lesson.. I so tired man. Because i from yesterday 11pm until now, e whole nite bo slp. I so tired and slpy lor. Then i also not reali want to listen to e lesson. I sit all e way at e las roll and wad was written on e board.. i oso cannot see. Kendrick brought e ikea book. I see e furnitures all so chio. Felt like changing things in my room leh. I aim one double deck bed so cool lor. but hor i think is too tall for my room le. Sadded. Hai~


::神様、もう少しだけ::


Sian lor.. During las period, form teacher's period. Cos we very noisy and e blardie teacher made us stand for zhun zhun 1 hr.. my legs so suan.. he keep asking me to tie my hair.. but i die die oso dunwan to tie leh.. see wad can he do.. i reali hate my from teacher yucks. He is e worst teacher i eva had. zZz


.:-+[Kämï§åmÄ!Mø_§ûkơ§h¦_Đªk³]+-:.


iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


Hmm.. School is usual today. *yawns* nothing new man.. Today A-maths i learn a new chapt.. it seems easy but is kind of confusing.. Sometimes itz confused till my brain can crack. Haha.. I still have not get hold of it. But i think i eventually will *winkz*


::神様、もう少しだけ::


hmm today got back my chemistry papers. Haha kinda happy cos i revising is not in vain. I scored 10/17. Although is not exceptionally well but erm.. i tink i haf done my best. keke. i must b proud of myself. keke. Den weisiong( my fren siting beside me) was like.. i hoped u got some mistakes and got ur marks minus off. lol.. he is jus jealous =X haha jus kidding..>

::神様、もう少しだけ::

When Mr.Ooi(My eng teacher) came into the class he asked me to check e dictionary for a wrd. Er.. oh man.. i cldnt remember.. But anyway it means something like punishment or smthg. Lala.. cos i did not attend one session of e eng enrichment in e holidays. Cos i pon? and did not haf an MC. so i have to conduct a mini-lesson for e klas tmr and pay back 2 hrs. I had to teach e klas abt "parts of speech" oh man.. i have not prepared e notes yet. Dotx. I go prepare now le.. orelse kena roasted by him tmr.. tata *pOofz*


[p/s] hmm who is souless? fooloong? hmm cos his nick seems to haf this word. But does he noe my diary? *wonders*


.:-+[Kämï§åmÄ!Mø_§ûkơ§h¦_Đªk³]+-:.




iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Monday, September 15, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


Today is the first day of e sch reopens. zZz. So fast sch holiday already finishes. Yawnz. I still want more siaz. Nothing much actuali happened in school today. Jus had a normal school day.


::神様、もう少しだけ::


When i go to school today, my sch bag so light. when i cum home, freakin heavy. zZz. Add on to my TYS and my accounts file. ugh. Today jus received my eng TYS. oh man. more work to come and that reminds me that i haf not paid for e book. Lolx. Lessons as usual but we had 2 new NIE teacher, one for physics and one for english. that sounds cool. The physics one seems so nerd. eekz. but the eng teacher kinda okay to me. keke.


::神様、もう少しだけ::


Hai. I am so confused about many things. I am so blur. What am i feeling? *sigh* i think i shudnt worry so much about such stuffs. But i jus cant make it outta my mind. I dunno how. Foo loong wanted a patch? he asked me in msn. And er.. but i am reali gtg at tt tym so i din answered him. Anyway i never intend to go back wif him. ahh forget it. I seemed to haf lotsa problems wif my feelings. What should i do? tell me someone. hai~ When will i stop hurting ple..

i kinda like this short sentence taken out from shokx's diary. "the worst thing i could do is to stand beside u without letting u noe i love u." How to let u noe..

.:-+[K舂・蚓ﾄ!Mｧ瑢ơｧhｦ_Đｪkｳ]+-:.



iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Saturday, September 13, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


wah... so tired yest. I went to Dover to meet my irc fren, jonathan. He is quite a joker, quite sociable and funny! lolx..


::神様、もう少しだけ::


At first we went to orchard. I oso dunno they go there for wad. And suddenly his fren say got free energy concert tickets and is available den can go watch. dunno la.. everything seems so blur to me.. haha.. but i oso dunno his frens well den din reali talked much lor. ke-erm. den they go bugis tk tickets and den go hme le. Cos they say meet later in e evening to watch energy concert. Seriously i oso not a fan of them but aiya since nth to do den go lor. Anyway nv go i oso nvm de. At bugis that time they got play Initial D. Actuali e game quite cool. Although i dun like to visit arcade but i always pei my frens go arcade but i will nt waste any money on it de. lolx. ya lor..


::神様、もう少しだけ::


yah lorx. wah e concert reali blast my ears sia.. haha.. but when they sing e soothing songs, is reali very nice.. hehe.. very touching. sobs. sobx. haha. Den Pan Wei Bo also got cum lehx.. hehe i think hor.. he beta den energy lor. =X haha his rap very nice.. keke.. oh ya i saw michelle at e entrance oso. haha she was wif her aunt. But sadly i din saw jasmine and jessie keke.. i guess jasmine was reali crazy yest. lolx..


::神様、もう少しだけ::


e concert ended at 10+ i suppose. den we walk a very long stretch of road back to e mrt. seriously i was very tired at tt tym haha.. den i got straight bus back ma.. den my fren insist on sending me back cos is kinda late le.. about 11+ at tt tym when we reach e MRT st. I feel kinda bad cos he stay so far and he still sends me home. In e end when he got to e MRT st, e MRT already close le. -.- den he got to tk bus to bedok den tk cab home. Cos hor, he stays at pasir ris leh. omg. haha. woOsh.. i was reali tired.. *yawns*


[p/s] hey.. i reali enjoyed e whole day and thnks for e concert! tk care..


.:-+[Kämï§åmÄ!Mø_§ûkơ§h¦_Đªk³]+-:.


iN-e-Sky

X x _____ • . wwùu . yyuånn . wwüu . hhuîi . • _____ x

Friday, September 12, 2003

1. [What is your full name] Raine Chai Sau Yi


2. [nickname] Rain rain go away..


3. [bday] 27th Nov '88


4. [Age] 14+ wish i cld b older..


5. [Sex] female


6. [Social Security] hmm?


7. [Where were you born]Malaysia (Perak)


8. [where you live now] Singapore


9. [Zodiac sign] Saggitarus ( did i get it correct?)


10. [What grade are you in and what school do you attend] Sec 3, Outram


11. [siblings and their ages]1 bro 14yrs


12. [do you get along] depends. But most of e times. worst when we quarrel.


13. [Pets] Birds? [my dad's] Fishes? [My mum

's]

14. [Righty or Lefty] Righty


15. [bedtime] slp when i am tired. I can be nocturnal.


16. [Hair color] It jez not pure black.


17. [Eye color] Dark brown


18. [Do you wear contacts or glasses] both. Depends.


19. [Do you have any piercings] 3 only? some were closed. Ouch.


20. [tattoos] no [never wanted it, although it looks kinda cool]

21. [scars] yes. alot. Longest at my left leg.


22. [Height] 155cm [ i noe i am short -.- ]


23. [Do you wear any rings] Yes. they look cool.


24. [What shoes do you wear] eh? S.H.O.E.S. all kinds as long is nice


25. [drove a car] zZz. If i can lor.. in e future i guess.


26. [met someone new] hmm? new? perhaps jonathan..


27. [done laundry] yes when my dad nags at me.


28. [cried] yes. When i feel down..


29. [wore a skirt] I am now.


30. [How are you today] filled wif unhappiness. Troubled.


31. [wearing] Orange-Blue track shorts and Orange T-shirt.


32. [thinking about] My future mp3player.


33. [What does your hair look like at the moment] tied up with a ponytail.


34. [What song are you listening to right now] Cecilia Cheung - legend of Speed.


35. [What was the last thing you ate and/or drank] Haf not eat for e last one day. las thing? a small mango.


36. [How is the weather right now] Yu Guo Tian Qing.


37. [Last person u talked to on the phone] Yizhan.


38. [watching] monitor?


39. [what time is it] 3.01pm


*****DO YOU BELIEVE IN ******


40. [yourself] I am indecisive. Sometimes i mus haf faith in myself. i mus learn to.


41. [friends] Yes i always do.


42. [best friends of the opposite sex] Yes. I can tok more of my things to them.. felt easy tokin to them.


43. [santa claus] no.


44. [tooth fairy] I dunno wad is it.


45. [angels] No. In my dreams.


46. [ghosts] Yes.


47. [aliens] Er.. Maybe..


48. [God] I am a free-thinker.



*******MORE ABOUT YOU!*******


49. [what are the last four digits of ur phone number] 1382


50. [Do you like the person who sent this to you] copied from fren's diary.


51. [how do you eat an Oreo] Young: Sepearate into half. But now.. Jus eat it in a whole..


52. [If you were a crayon what color would you be] Light blue. Dark blue. Baby Blue. Everything which is Blue.


53. [Have you ever almost died] No. i wld like to when i felt hopeless.


54. [What's the best advice ever given to you] I have forgotten.


55. [Have you ever won any special award] er.. in my sports, arts ? i couldn't remmeb..


56. [Do you like to dance] Dance. I hope i can learn.


57. [Worst sickness you've ever had] I am healthy. All illness is jus normal sickness. Er.. worst? Chicken pox?


58. [What's the stupidest thing you have ever done] To have agree on Xiong yao..


59. [What's the next CD you are going to buy] Cd? i always download. maybe is final fantasy 8 original soundtrack or ffX flims.


60. [What sport you hate the most] I am a sporty gal.


61. [Place for a dream house] Heaven.


62. [How many kids do you want to have] 0-2..


63. [Have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone] Yes. It hurts alot. And is giving problems even when i am walking sometimes.


64. [Who do you tell your dreams to] Frens or brother


65. [What are you most scared of] Hantu. Cockroaches.


66. [How many tv's do you have in your house] 3?


67. [Do you have your own tv] have but i normali go living rom watch one.


68. [do you have your own phone line] No. Handphone lor.


69. [do you sleep with a stuffed animal] Er.. no. But i have stuffed toys at e side as decorations. I dun reali like stuffed toys.


70. [Are you shy] When i saw the person i love.


71. [Are you outgoing] With e frens i already knew. But dun tok much when i jus knew tt person. outgoing in Sms.


72. [Who is the loudest friend you have] jasmine?


73. [Who is the quietest friend you have] Yixiang..


74. [Who looks the worst in the morning] hmmm everyone.


75. [Who's the messiest eater] nv notice ple when they eat.


76. [Who's the slowest eater] to what i noe.. Janice?


77. [Who's the bossiest] i dunno..


78. [Who is the 'mom' outta your friends] er.. i suppose is ivan.he is a man omg. zz


79. [who are the top 3 hottest guys/girls u know] eh? 1. Takeshi / kyoko 2. Takeshi / kyoko 3. Takeshi / kyoko


80. [who's the weirdest] My form teacher. Mr koh.


81. [who is the funniest]: Kenny Tay? I used to go to sch wif him and i laugh non-stop to sch.


82. [who do you go to for advice] My frens.. anyone i can find..


83. [who do you think about most when you're not happy] Myself. why god make me suffer..


84. [who do you cry with] depends on where am i.. wif my fren on e fone? With e bedroom when i am emotionally hurt.


85. [what's the best feeling in the world] To be loved.


86. [when's the last time you cried] 5th of sept, fri.. my mum cried too..


87. [is cheerleading a sport] i dunno ..


88. [How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop] i dun understand.


89. [Which came first the chicken or the egg] Not Funny..


90. [Root Beer or Dr. Pepper] Never tried b4..


91. [vanilla or chocolate] chocolate


92. [Love or lust] e world of love.


93. [silver or gold] silver .. gold is for e older generations ke..erm..


94. [Have you ever gone skinny dipping] wads that?


95. [What's your favorite color] Blue.. blue..


96. [What's your favorite band/singer] theres real alot!


97. [What do you dream about] Wierd things.. i even dreamt abt wif Ella (S.H.E) ytd! omg!!


98. [Favorite song] Alot alot.. Chinese and jap!


99. [Do you like to sing in the shower] Sometimes i do when i am happy! Wahahha!!!! shhh. =X


100. [Had an imaginary friend] i dun think that much.


101. [Wanted to "hook up" with a friend] when i find some one who i can really love.. really really to love i mean.. currently.. i dun haf one..


102. [Cried during a movie] yes..


103. [Had a crush on a teacher] eh? is that counted? i think is jus student-teacher like.. lalala..


104. [What is the first thing you think about when you wake up in the morning] I regretted not slpin early ytd nite.



*****Preference*****


105. [Sleep on your back, stomach or side] tried all b4.


106. [Adidas, Nike, or Reeboks] Adidas i think...


107. [Croutons or Bacon Bits] i dunno wads tt..


108. [2 doors or 4 (on a car)] 2 la.. more cool haha.. unique mah..


109. [Bridges or Tunnels] Bridges.. i not ghost la.. dun hide in dark places..


110. [One pillow or two?] 1..


111. [Salt or butter flavored popcorn] Salted.. i dun reali eat popcorns..


112. [Fizzy or still water] Still water.. plain water is e onli drink which can make me full! GulP!


113. [Red whine or white wine] both oso can la..



*****Word Association - (1st Thing That Comes To Mind)*****


114. [Rubber Gloves] ViVi


115. [Disney Character] Tweety?


116. [Fast Food place] Mcdonalds


117. [Board Game] Chess


118. [Rock] desert


119. [Blue] My belongings


120. [Wet] Water


121. [Cry] Depressed


122. [Peanut Butter] Bread


123. [Hay] green


124. [Paper] homework


125. [Wood] tree


126. [Yellow] Bernice


127. [Laugh] joke?


128. [Ugly] war


129. [Happy] my mp3player



******YOU AND LOVE******


130. [Do you believe in love] yes although it hurts


131. [Do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend] god knows..


132. [do you have a crush] yes.. hai~


133. [who is your crush] haiya.. ask me lor i will tell ya if i believe ya *winkz*


134. [are you sending this to your crush] not sending.. putin it in my blog.


135. [do you believe in love at first sight] er.. maybe lor if e guy is handsome.. but its definately not true love


136. [What song do you want played at your wedding] sentimental.. soothing and both me and my husband like one..


137. [Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with] My future husband.. who i still dunno hu and haf not met i think.. prolly someone who can love me alot..


138. [Do you find yourself attractive] eh? zzz..


139. [What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex] the way he talk to me.. his smile his everything..


140. [are you too shy to ask someone out] nope.



*****When was the last time you...*****



141. [Took a shower] 2+?


142. [Watched Bambi] si mi is bambi?


143. [Got a real letter] A few days ago? telling me my popular card has expired.. tt reminds me to get it renew..


144. [Wished upon a star]I never did. But hope it can be true.


145. [Asked someone for forgiveness] To jave? but i think its not my fault.. ah wadeva i jus dunwan e frenship to worsen tts all..


146. [Hugged someone] i hope i can hug someone now.. er if hug ah.. dunno how long ago.. dun rememb..


147. [Kissed someone] hmmm either apr or may.. My ex stead..


148. [Ate something] 9am? a small mango.


149. [Called someone] 2 days ago.. called alice for help in e 1500 wrd essay..



*******What is your...******* >



150. [Good luck charm] dunno.. my luck has nt been very gd..


151. [Bedroom like] cosy.. well packed.. very small... with a double deck bed and 2 cupboards one tall drawer .. anyway is cramped but neat.. i have everythin i need here... but no food..


152. [Favorite Breakfast food] sandwich.. but tts an ideal one.. i nv reali eat breakfast.. Yawns..


153. [Favorite lunch food] anything tts nt fattening..


154. [Best thing that happened to you today] I am able to use e internet and my comp went okay~ and without e disturbance of my bro.



*****What do you think about the following***** >


155. [Abortion] no way for me!


156. [Homosexuality] wads e point?


157. [Rap] no comments. but i dun listen to rap.


158. [Classical] can instrumental?


159. [Oldies] depends la.. i dun listen oso..


160. [Swing] simi swing? playgrd de? i like to stand on it.. but often felt dizzy when i reach a certain ht.. dunno y..



**********PICK ONE: THIS OR THAT**********



161. [lights on/off] off


162. [sun or rain or snow] snow..


163. [mickey D's (McDonalds) or BK (burger king)] BK


164. [do you like scary movies or happy movies better] scary one.. more exciting..


165. [backstreet boys or NSYNC] can i choose orlando bloom?


166. [on the phone or in person] in person lor.. can see e expression..


167. [summer or winter] winter lor.. wanna try smthg diff.. summer is like singapore.. sick of it.


168. [chocolate or white milk] chocolate.. yummy..


169. [CD or tape] Cd la..


170. [hugs or kisses] hugs..


171. [cake or pie] cake


172. [cats or dogs] If i were to choose.. dogs..


173. [mud or jello wrestling] i duno wads jello but mud seems dirty? i choose jello..


174. [skiing or boarding] skiing bah.. got snow


175. [day or night] night...not so hot..


176. [sunset or sunrise] rise... set is not beter den rise.. i think...


177. [diamond or pearls] diamonds.. they look shimmering..



*******YOUR FAVES*******



178. [candy] any which is in lemon flavor..


179. [Beverage] sprite? orange juice?


180. [cartoon characters] can anime anot? final fantasy characters..


181. [sport(s)] all kinds.. but cycling best..


182. [Song] Chinese and jap~


183. [favorite actor or actress] Takeshi kaneshiro~ kyoko fukada and orlando bloom~!!


184. [Favourite movie] Pirates of the carribean


185. [tv show] Xun Qing Ji.. Xun Yi Cao and also god please gimme more time..


186. [Favourite food] vegetables.. fruits and sushi..


187. [ice cream] chocolate chip.. yam... cookies and cream..


188. [subject] eh? history bah..


189. [shampoo] er heads and shoulder


190. [favourite month] November.. cos got holiday oso my bdae!


191. [favourite number] 5


192. [favourite person to talk to online] hm.. alot.. robin? Yizhan? alice? jiamin?



******HAVE YOU EVER******


193. [cut your hair yourself] yes from long to short


194. [been on stage] yea..


195. [Ever thought an animated character was hot] duh.. anime rules..


196. [kept a secret from everyone] i told my biggest secret tto e frens i trusted..


197. [been hurt emotionally] yes. always.


198. [been in a car accident] got.. my papa drive..


199. [put a body part on fire for amusement] on my palms. it dun hurt.


200. [drank] yes. and i even got drunk and sprout nonsense..


201. [smoked] nope never.


202. [broke the law] got bah.. stole a correction tape. lol!


203. [ran from the cops] nope..


204. [made yourself cry to get outta trouble] not in purpose..


205. [tried to kill yourself] Yes.. prepared lots of pills in my room.. i even wanted to cut myself once..


206. [made your self throw up] i wun torture myself like this..


207. [ever been in love] yes..


208. [loved someone so much it made you cry] Yes.. it hurts and it STILL hurts..


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神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


it jus suck. hai. woke up so early in e morning. Feeling so moltivated to do my revising. And i already plan on starting with my Social Studies. Jaricson call me out to study, actualli feel abit like going but its kinda far, so forget it. My comp can use liao. So tempted to use it. ugh. how how how. oh man.. spend my day sorting out my mp3s and blah blah blah. e next thing is to wait for my comp to get formatted!


::神様、もう少しだけ::


ah so boring. felt so tempted to buy a mp3player after seeing shokx's one. but hor.. estimated $500 lor. OMG. Even more ex den my PS2. I knew my mum will nt buy for me one. hai~ i asked jus now. She say "no" jus as expected. I was kinda unhappy wif it. But i stay calm and jus walk away. I am fine now. But the Mp3player is really gd lor! Can store about 1million songs? and oso can store files. [shokx are u bluffing me?] omg. so good leh.. but of cos is ex la.. hai~ hmph! no matter what.. i am going to save up money to buy it. And.. i mean it. >=( hai~ i shud haf brought it when my ma struck lottery then. *sigh* i must REN!!


::::神様、もう少しだけ::


I am slacking. I mus buck up! er.. c'mon back to my revision! c'mon!!


[p/s] Orlando Bloom is so handsome!!!


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Thursday, September 11, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


*yawns* what a boring mid autumn festival. SO BORING. anyway go out wif shokx today to watch movie. Actually we wanted to watch the "turn left tuen right" show one. But e receptionist made a mistake! and gave me the tickets for "pirates of the carribean".. nvm.. den go watch that one lor.. since i was hesitating whether to watch "turn left turn right" cos.. someone told me abt e storyline and it seems quite boring to me. *yawnz* BUT got takeshi kaneshiro... nvm nvm..


::神様、もう少しだけ::


hey the show is really very very very nice.. and it lasted about 2 and a hr hours? but is very niceee!! mus watch it man! the gal is so pretty and e guy is so handsome.. keke.. looks like beckham.. LOL.. yea...


::神様、もう少しだけ::


aft watchin i oso dunhaf e mood to do anything. and so i went back home.. i felt so moody! i dunno y.. i think is becos i am too worried about e final yr exams.. i wan to do well.. and i am forcing myself to study although i felt tempted by e surroundings. hai~


::神様、もう少しだけ::


I found out that my comp is back to normal and i can use it! i demand to use the internet ( to get e modem back) but.. my brother does not let me use! ugh! i hate him.. he is forever using e comp and does nt allow me to use e internet! and he does not wan a router!! hey.. unfair unfair.. i hate him.. zzz.. i jus wan a break man.. stressful.. ahhh.. have not eaten for e whole bloody day.. *yawns*


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Wednesday, September 10, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


hello! i am back. Hehehe. I am now using the computer to type my 1500 words essay! ugh! this reali sucks. Jason Ooi. i.. dislike u some times. well, i regret not goin for the debate. hai~ anyway the topic is "this house believes that Science and Technology is progressing at a rate too fast for the good of society". well tell me wad can i write about this freakin diff topic and somemore, in 1500 words! its gonna kill me for sure. but i still have to do it. ugh!


::神様、もう少しだけ::


oh ya. today supposed to go for BBQ by the CC people. Seriously, I DUN WAN TO GO! and they are really a bunch of irritating people. yucks! i dun think i have time to revise my subjects for end of yr as i think theres no much time left. i am so worried about exams! hai. i think too much le. anyway today i re-do the indices topic from my e-maths txtbk. Try all ways to remember and stuff. i mus gambatte! ( o.O? did i spell correctly?) shokxxx!! lolx. *sigh* still bothered with the essay.


::神様、もう少しだけ::


ahh. shokx! thanks so much for helping me with e html thingy. haha is in real mess hor? but xie xie leh! muacks *blush* keke!


[p/s] i dunno why... i feeling so happy!


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Sunday, September 07, 2003

神様、もう少しだけ dEaR diAry,


yeap.i got my hair rebonded. It looks fine with me but i dun noe wad others think. tmr goin back to sch for enrichment. hate this. this is as if theres no holidays for me. -.-


::神様、もう少しだけ::


my mum struck lottery. yea the first prize. but she jus buy $3. din win much tho. but still quite a sum la. the whole family wif my aunt and cousin today. We were allowed to buy whatever things we want. BuT! of cos things which we needed. We did not spent away the money without thinking. we went chinatown, theres a sort of funfair. As i loved to watch VCDs as well as my bro. We bought really alot alof of vcds. Haha. about 200+? Maybe. haha. Then we go marina SQ and Suntec. We shop and shop and shop. and sure bought alot of things. My brother bought a dumbell worth of $100 aft discount and er.. and some sports items that we wanted. hehe. I decided to tk gd care of my health. have a balance diet as well as enough sports. keke. My brother bought the most things but those were necessary. yea we had this chance once in a blue moon. After today i guess there would be no other days, unless my parents struck another lottery. LOL. Today gonna be a VCD craze day. *stretch* i go bathe leeeeee..


[p.s] My cousin is really very rowdy! couldnt stand him! ugh.


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